Dawn of Souls

and im doing nothing. well, im watching the naruto marathon...weeeee!!! anyways, my parents are going down to three rivers to see a band, the shival experience. those guys are so fucking awesome!!! they play blues, jazz, reggae, rock, stuff like that. and my parents are staying the night up there. so its just me and my brother and a friend of ours. hmmmm, i wonder if i can lure a certain friend of mine over so i can have some fun...ehehehehhehehe...

im so happy with my tarot cards!!! i know how to use them quite well now. :) and if they are right, im going to receive some wrath from my mom when she gets home! oh....wait....shit........thats bad.....so, uh...im gonna go clean the entire house now.....

ive been thinking about getting a tattoo. not just some stupid flower or anything like that, but a dragon. and not just a dragon, a dragon that came to life in my mind. i want her (i see the dragon as a female) to take up all of my upper back. im thinking of having her done in mostly blue, but also with red, green, purple, yellow, orange, and gold. each of those colors has a special meaning to me, or describes me as a person.

blue:intelligent, hate to be interrupted when they are thinking. loves to read

red:strong willed and passionate, when they put their mind to somethng there is no stopping them.

green:more in tune with nature, very caring, and excellent healers

purple:dramatic and vibrant, can be a little snobby sometimes

yellow:a color to match a sunny personalitites. cheerful and up beat but sometimes, a tad bit too carefree. always willing to lend a hand, sometimes a little to egotistical

orange:optimistic, artistic, quick-witted but have a short temper at times

gold:good leaders, with a strong personalitites. considered more along the lines of royalty

so there you have it. im still trying to think of a way how to get those colors together and look good. but those are the ones i want. what im thinking about doing, is redrawing her, and coloring her with watercolors. im hoping to get it as a graduation/birthday present from my parents. ive put a lot of thought into this thing, and i REALLY hope to get it.

i hardly have the motivation to post anymore. meh....

how depressing...its december 21...and i HAVE to remind myself EVERYDAY that christmas is coming. i guess in a way, its best for me to block it out. the 26 is the one year anniversary of my uncles death...my aunt is supposed to come and see us, and i hope she does. i worry about her....*sigh* i dont know why i post this. its kinda personal, but my friends are on here, so i guess its okay. *sigh* the decorations no longer bring joy to my heart, the christams tree no longer the great harborer of untold treasures, its been years since ive given up listening for those eight tiny reindeer, the christmas stories no longer tempt me to believe....this holiday really is for children....

iPods are a trendy and expensive cry for approval. Remember when you were little and you really, really wanted that toy? You'd think about it all the time, dream about it, masturbate to pictures of it, all that good stuff? It was the one thing in the world that would solve all your problems. Christmas came along and you got one from Santa. You and the toy were inseparable for a week straight. All your friends loved you. Everybody begged to play with them. They exclaimed, "Wow, that toy is so cool!" which you took as, "Wow, you are so cool!" Times were good when you were hot shit. Soon enough, Jimmy down the street got a newer and better toy. Your friends stopped calling you, depression sunk in, and your precious action figure found its way to the back of your drawer. Optimus Prime transformed into Prime Dust Collector. Suddenly, the answer hit you - get a better toy! That will bring your friends back and make everything perfect again. Over and over, every Christmas. Newer, faster, bigger, stronger toys. After a decade of the that, you came to grips with yourself and realized that all this petty materialism wasn't the answer. You began taking responsibility for yourself and stopped expecting pieces of plastic to solve your problems. Or did you? Instead of continuing to question your values, I'm going to flat out say it - you don't need an iPod. They are a waste of your (parents') money. You don't need one, and you should be ashamed of yourself for being naive enough to think that you do. Every day I see people talking about how much they want an iPod. It reminds me of listening to kids on my old 4th grade playground saying, "I want a ZX Super Actionman so bad!" No, you didn't need the toy then and you don't need an iPod now. What is an iPod? It's a little piece of metal that you plug headphones into and listen to music. I remember when I was ten we had a device that achieved the same goal - a Discman. You can buy them nowadays for... ohhh.. somewhere around the proximity of zero dollars. Discmans worked fine back in the day. Now that there is better technology, all of a sudden Discmans are worthless. But why? Discmans never got worse, technology got better. Worthless technology. The concept is to listen to music with no strings attached. Discmans accomplish this just fine. The iPod is capable of holding ten thousand songs. Who needs that much? Of the thirteen million iPod owners in the world, how many have maxed out the space? Only 1425. Merely fourteen hundred people have successfully filled their iPod. And strangely enough, all of these kids were in the same room at the same time. It was at the annual GROTEFP (Geekiest Rejects on the Entire Fucking Planet) convention. So you like iPods because they're smaller than CD players? That's reasonable, but how much is it worth to you to shave off a few precious inches?
The iPod ends up being ten square inches smaller than the average portable CD player. That means a total of about three inches squared.

It's only three inches. That's tiny, and for three hundred dollars? Penis enlargment pills offer you an extra three inches, and they're only forty or fifty bucks. Now honestly, would you rather have three inches less of audio player or a Discman and huge dick? Size won't even matter anymore because you can just hang the player from your enormous schlong. Now that the size issue is settled, perhaps a Discman isn't the answer because you require more than 3 seconds of anti-skip. Oh wait! Discmans nowadays don't ever skip! Ever. That can't be what makes up for the drastic difference in money. The iPod can hold 10,000 songs. The Discman uses CDs which hold twenty songs. Perhaps you don't want to carry 100 CDs everywhere you go. Oh wait! Discmans play mp3s now! That's 200 songs per CD! And unlike an iPod that maxes out at 10,000, Discmans have a removable source. So if we have 200 songs per CD and potentially infinite CDs, that's.. umm.. 200 infinity of songs? Let's put this into perspective.

my friend, www.myspace.com/jeremykremper, has this on his myspace profile, hes one funny guy.... 

Guys who like virgins are bad in bed. Preferring virgins is an insecurity complex among men. Virgins are awful in bed, they have no idea what they're doing, and it's usually very uncomfortable for everybody involved. Except the midget. But virgins aren't into midgets or bondage or any of that fun shit. They want straight-up missionary position until orgasm. I'd rather fuck my blowup doll. At least she gives me head beforehand. It's ridiculous. Guys who have small penises get off by chasing virgins. And they should. Because virgins and tinydicks are made for each other. The girl doesn't know any better, so she enjoys it. The guy feels confident in knowing that the girl doesn't know any better, so he enjoys it. Have you ever seen virgin porn? It's more cute than sexy. It's like watching monkeys fuck on TV. Instead of saying, "Ohhhhhh," I'm like, "Awwwww." Some guys think they get off with the whole "pristine untouched territory" fetish, like being the first to walk through new fallen snow. But then they become pedophiles. There's no reason why a man who's confident with his penis size and skills in bed would ever prefer virgins. Unless he was a Catholic priest. Virgins are always terrified and timid and it totally ruins the mood. Having sex with a virgin is like playing pool with a girl who's never played before - she flails the stick around randomly and giggles trying to be cute. Not to mention she has no idea how to manipulate the balls. It's ridiculous. When I have sex with a girl who doesn't have a clue, I'm like, "Sorry, you are the weakest link." Then I whack off and cum on her face. And that's a problem because I usually have feelings for the girl. And it's impossible to take a girl seriously after I've came on her face. The next day, she'll be like, "Thilo, so what do you think of Sartre's view on utilitarianism?" And I say, "I dunno.... Hey, remember when I came on your face?"

51077 guys just realized how pathetic they are.

myspace wont let my put my picture on there because its to big! what a buch of whiners....meh....

anyways, i get to go to the beach tonight! and im so happy that finals are over and christmas vacation has offically started!!!!! WWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! !!!

ive now had two admirers from myspace. im thinking about meeting up with one of them, who lives fairly close to me. maybe....hes like 20 something though. dunno

for christmas im getting a class ring. and thats all im getting. but thats fine with me, seeing as its over three hundred dollars. i cant wait!!! oh it makes me think on yester years what with graduation coming up. *sigh*

my email isnt working....which REALLY sucks....grrrrrrrr

my popularity had dropped quite a bit it seems. but like i said "oh well..."

gar!!! i hate it when i like 4 guys at the same time! i cant make up my mind....ah!!! there is this one guy on my space who sent this message to me:

HEY WHATS UP GURL? IM JUST DROPPEN BY TO SAY U IZ LOOKIN HELLA SEXY MA. YA VERY SEXY, NICE SMILE, CUTE NICE LIPS, AND I BET U GOT A NICE ASS PERSONALLTY. WELL HIT ME BACK IGHT MA? IGHT PEACE OUT...

i have NEVER had anyone talk to me like that before! well except for one guy...but lets not go there....

he seems nice enough, but i dunno....what do y'all think? block this guy...or be nice and talk to him?

im so sorry i havent posted in so long!!! beat me if you must, ill enjoy it though. go see spasticpotato, hes my friend. kinda crazy and stupid but ummmmm, no just crazy and stupid. whateva though. uhhh, i had a good turkey day...lots and lots of food....ugh, so much food thats why the holidays are good though. ive been addicted to myspace, thats why i havent been here, minding my blog and all that fun stuff. well, im gonna go to myspace and check my messages...bye!!!