Dawn of Souls

hey all!!!

just posting to say....

THANK YOU!!!! THANK YOU TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE WHY VOTED FOR ME, IM SOOOOO HAPPY!! (ehehehehe, im not a lamerchick)

and...

go visit my younger brothers blog, demonddays, or something like that. i helped him put it up. hes real eager to get comments, but then again what new blogger isnt? i remember when i first started. i started to get sad when people wouldnt comment. but now, i have many friends who stand me enough to come to my blog. *muuuahhh* thats for all of my friends!!!!

i went to bed at nine, but i didnt fall asleep till two fifteen ish. wanna know why? i was reading!!! i read a lot but thats the longest haul ive had in a while. geez...

anyways, when i fell asleep, i had a very strange dream.

Stephen King was in it (im reading the Stand, which is by him. go figure)and i was related to him some how. i think he might have been my dad or something. cuz my "mom" had somthing wrong with her (she was either blind or retarded) and he was taking care of her. anyways were up in the mountains, and im walking around and i find this beautiful bird cage, and i walk in and it has a couple different kind of parrots and a whole bunch of large finch like birds, and an old couple. anyways they were all really still, even the old people, and when i looked in the center of the cage, there was a large mcaw, and it looked like it had hung itself. i stopped dead in my tracks. i was paralyzed. then he shook his beautiful red head, and the rope disappeared,and came back to life. is if some spell had been broken, everything was moving in the cage again. turns out the old couple had been feeding the large finchs. i stayed in there for a while feeding the birds dimes (apparently, they really like dimes). anyways, after a while i go back to the cabin. then my "mom" and "dad" come back, and they say we are going to take a cruise. anyways, my dream skips ahead, and now its my real parents, and we are at a desk looking at books with all kinds of different places to go to. and fliting around behind the desk is a really pretty spanish woman, and she flirting with everyone. batting her alluring dark eyes, and brushing back her beautiful raven hair. then she starts to flirt with me. and i fall in love with her. by this time my parents have decided we are going to the bahamas, and as we are getting on the boat i see that spanish beauty, and she crying and im crying. and then my mom says the cheesiest thing (hey, its a dream....a weird dream) "go to her"  and as the boat is pulling away from the dock, a leap across the gap and into her arms. we then start to kiss. and ohhhhhh, was it a kiss. we end up in a beautiful bed room, ya know with the satin sheets and candles burning the whole shebang, and we make the most wonderful love.

and then i wake up, gasping and hot.

~thats all!!!

dont know what woke me up, but im awake. ive been awake since 5:15. *twitch*

anyways, i got to thinking what im going to do after high school. ultimatly, i want to go to CCA, a culinary school, in SF. but i made a decision. im going to stay around and go to Porterville College to earn my Associates Degree. and to earn some money. my mom said she would support me while i went to PC, as long as i brought home decent grades.

right after high school ended i wanted to go staright to SF, but when i got to thinking about supporting myself, i figured it would be best to have some money stashed.

anyways, this coming tuesday, i might be going to bakersfield with my friend omar. its funny, cuz he called me up out of the blue, and asked if i wanted to go. hes a completly different person out of school. hes nicer. he got all excited about going, and i was just sitting there laughing cuz hes sitting there on the other line about how much fun were going to have. i swear it was the longest phone conversation ive ever had with him. max, one of my other friends, wants to go, but omar, i guess, has gotten sick of him. omar says hes been coming over every day, just to play games. that WOULD get annoying.

anyways, cant wait..

and i had another dream of Garcia last night. i swear i cant stop thinking about him. its starting to hurt. *does that make sense?!?* i dream about him and i daydream. i ask josh how he is every time i talk to him. he just kinda smirks and says hes fine. i wonder....if me and Garcia started to go out (which btw probably wont happen, regardless of the feelings, because of 1.im five years younger than him :( and 2. hes my brothers best friend) if it would work out. sighhhhhh, now im all depressed....

~Cheer me up.....

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In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.</td></tr>
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You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.</td></tr>
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You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.</td></tr>
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Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.</td></tr>
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Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.</td></tr>
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You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.</td></tr>
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In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.</td></tr>
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i knew it would come. the little gnawing feeling. the last three weeks of vacation im starting to miss school. its not that i miss my friends or the work, but i think i need it because it gives me something to do. ya see, just sitting around the house is only fun for so long.

my schedule this year:

1. choir

2. civics and econ

brunch

3.english four

4. HERO: restaurant

5.lunch

6. HERO: restaurant

7. chemistry

thats the general idea, civics and econ, english, and chemistry might be switched around though. im going to be a senior this year, and my brother is going to be a freshman. i wont tease him, no matter how much i want too. hell have a hard enough time being a freshman. but im not going to ignore him, ill say hi if i see him. which might not be that much. but whatever..

im having spaghetti for lunch, yummmm!!!

~Cheerio!!

im not in the best mood today. the angel food cake i attempted last night DID NOT turn out. i just over mixed it and it came out as a rubbery ring of dough. bleh, but it was my first time making angel food cake. so ill work on it. and i have more yard work to do today. i have to pull up weeds.

not much else going on. just waiting for my brother to get online so i can talk to him.

~Cheerio!!

i know i keep complaining about the heat, and im sure its getting old....but deal with it.

i did my yard work today, and to tell you the truth it wasnt that bad. im just tired. and stinky. when i think about it, i think im the only one who does yard work at least once a week. my mom is late coming home, and i want to see my mommy. i love my mom. shes really pretty, and she still gets a lot of looks. but to me shes my mommy.

im going to go take a nap, sorry this post isnt more interesting.

~ni-ni..

last night i went over to,my friend, Trish's house. it was fun. we hung out for a while. watched constantine. its a pretty good movie, but not the best the third time watching it. and then later on, i ended up drinking a 24 oz. can of beer. there were shocked that i finished it all. phht...i aint that innocent. i can fuckin drink. and they were all nervous about me driving home. i dont think i even had a slight buzz. but just so i wouldnt worry them, i let kyle follow me home. and i did fine. thank you very much.

anyways, im going back over there in a little bit. and then earlier this morning, my sister calls. and i find out that shes coming to my dads graduation. i was kinda surprised. and i was thinkin ohhhhh, shit. dont get me wrong, deep down i love her. but shes, pushy and bossy and controling. i hate to say it but, josh, my older brother, is my favorite sibling. and me and him get along perfectly. not that i can remember, weve never had a real argument. and ive known him almost all of my life (him and my older sister and my dad are all step) but, ya....

i better go get dressed...

~Cheerio!! 

i hate it here in the valley. the weather sucks, and so does the air. yesterday evening i was coming home with josh and rosemary, and when we went over the hills and saw bakersfield, it was aweful. there was smog and all kinds of stuff. i wish i was still at their house :(

the weather was very nice over there. ive started trying to get up earlier now that school isnt too far off. at least no later than ten. and you know what else? i havent had a soda for over a week now. im not having sugar withdrawls or anything. hmmmm, i think ill see if i can keep going without soda. ive heard of a lot of people losing a lot of weight by just giving up soda. and i have a lot of weight to lose.

anyways, just three more weeks until my dad graduates and comes home. me, mom, and justin (little brother) will be heading down to arizona for his graduation. and they average, temp wise, around 115. ya, hot. and its a 11 hour drive. it might be more when you factor in the fact that we are going to be hauling our trailer and then you wont know what traffic will be like. so, who knows?

~Cheerio!!

GARCIA WAS IN A CAR CRASH TODAY!!!!!!!

my brother had left for school, and then rosemary calls and says that hes coming home. i ask why and she says Garcia was in a crash. i gasped and started to cry! but she told me that he was okay, just a little shocked (his front end of the car was jacked though). his engine was tilted to the left and he could hardly close his hood. josh came and changed his tire and pounded the bumper back so it wouldnt rub on his tire. he has no lights on the right side of his car. anyways, when josh got back home, he was there to get some tools so i just jumped into the truck with him to go and see Garcia. when we got there he was exchanging info with the other person (the person pulled out in front of him). when they were done talking, i hugged him and said "i started to cry when i heard" he just smiled and hugged me a little tighter.

anyways, at first he was going to come home with us and hang out. but he just went with josh to school. (i was kinda bummed) and when he got back, it was nine and it was very dark. rosemary wanted him to take the jeep, but he just refused the offer. he had to drive back to base in his poor battered up truck. he got back on base fine, but i was still worried about him. i really do have a crush on this guy, its kinda sad really...

WE CAN'T LEAVE YOU ALONE WITH A STAPLER CAN WE, HUH, CAN WE!?!?! I SAY CHICKEN SIR, CHICKEN!!!

NO, GO AWAY!!! SQUIDDLYSPOOCH!!! MY STOMACH ITS GONE, GOOOOOONE!! WHY MY SQUEEZING ARM? WHY'D THEY TAKE MY SQUEEZING ARM?!!!? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! !!!!! AHAHHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA, I DO NOT COPULATE WITH TWINKIES!!!! MMMMMM, AIR! A TASTY SNACK!!!

*twitchtwitch*

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BUT IM IN A GREAT MOOD!!!!!!!!

i slept till 11. i finished my Harry Potter book at exactly 1:15 this morning. i cried the entire last two chapters. im surprised i finished it this soon, it usually takes me a week to read anything over 400 pages. but, i guess i just read in large chunks. anyways, good book.

at seven today im going to go with my sis in law and her friend to see cinderall man. looks kinda good. and then im leaving tomorrow afternoon to go back home. i dont want to though. it means i wont get to see or hug Garcia again for a long time. :( im REALLY starting to like him, and i told josh. i hope he doesnt tell him. but i trust josh, so i think im safe.

i dont wanna go home, and my younger brother doesnt want me to come home either. it was funny i talked to him the other day, for like a second though, and he told me to take my time getting home. but he doesnt know what hes missing, im getting spoiled here. taken to movies, stuff is bought for me, and full access to their booze cabinet. very handy for when i get bored (yaaaaaaaa!!!!!) and they have some of my favorites in there to.

anyways, its 2:45, and im still in my pjs. im going to go get a shower.

i hope everyone is having a great day like me!!!

~Cheerio!!

where is everyone?!?

maybe im just bored and frustrated that no one has talked to me....i get to go out and eat some clam chowder, yum!!

~Cheerio!

ok, last night i was bored of reading, so i flipped ahead in the book. and if you dont want to see any spoilers, stop reading.....

1. Dumbledore dies

2. Snape is the half-blood prince

3. (this one isnt so shocking) Harry ends up going out with Ginny

in ma belly!!

i slept late today. i woke up a like 11, but i went to bed at 3. i was reading the new harry potter book. its pretty good so far, even though this book seems to be a little bit darker than the others.

anyways, im bored. my brother is on base till 11:30 ish then he comes home for lunch, then he goes to a class till four ish then comes home for a couple of hours till he has to go to yet another class, and that class lasts till 9. and my sis in law works until 6. so, for a large amount of the day im here with their dog. his name is brody and hes a boxer. hes a real sweet heart. since josh and rosemary (brother and sis in law) leave aound 6 and i get up between 9 and 11 hes bored until i get up. its sooo cute when i look over the railing and hes layin on the couch bored. then i call his name and he looks up and he gets all excited and wriggly, and he runs up the stairs as fast as his over long legs can carry him. and then for the rest of the day hes my shadow. heheheh, he has this squeaky cheese toy, and if you squeeze it slow, he starts to howl.

anyways, im sitting here in my pjs. i havent got anything else to wear, so i have to do laundry before 4. josh usually comes with a friend or two once in a while. and i really dont feel like facing his (very hot) friends in my pjs. its weird, ive been dreaming a lot about one of his friends, Garcia. i think hes 21, or something close to that age. but josh and rosemary are always teasing me about him. like the other day when josh was talking to him, he looked at me and said, "hey, Garcia, why dont you come over and see my sister this week. you know break her in." i was so embarrased. but he is rather cute. last night me and rosemary made dinner. we had stuffed pork chops (i made those) and then veggies and rice. and Garcia came over for dinner. afterwards hes like "that was so good, i think i wanna give you a big wet one"  i just looked at him funny. and josh and rosemary were be the sink laughing. well, i left the dished to them. hmph... eventually they all came into the living room. rosemary fell asleep on the couch, brody had a spaz attack and Garcia checked his mail. around 11 he got up to leave. and since this was the first time i had seen him in a while, i got up to give him a hug. and...it was....kinda weird...he held on to me kinda tight....*blush*and his face got close to mine. (OK, YA KNOW WHAT!? THE ONLY THING THAT CMT IS PLAYING RIGHT NOW IS LOVE SONGS!!)im kinda confused, was it something, or was it just (its hard for me to put this into words) just a hug?

(two things: damn i wrote a lot today, and i think im craving male attention)

~help please.....

i changed my blog title from "Fable Fatel" to "Dawn of Souls"

enjoy

last night i got here to my brothers house. but he wasnt here, which was a dissapointment at first, but i turned out to be a fun night. anyways today, i seriously was spoiled today. first, we went to a build a bear workshop, and i got a unicorn. shes soooo cute, and her name is Cloud Chaser. i even got a birth certificate for her.

and then we went to go see the movie, and afterwards we went to the NEX (the navy exchange or something like that) and since the new Harry Potter book came out today, my brother got that for me. it was only like, 17 bucks!! i was really surprised because not only is it a new book, but its also in hardback.

anyways, not much else to say. getting ready for bed actually, so g'night all!!

~Cheerio!!

ugh, i just got done with my yard work. i smell like gas and sweat. here in a minute im going to go and wash my car. tomorrow im leaving to go spend a week with my older brother. itll be nice to get away from my mom and little brother.

the other night i went with my friend aspen to the movies and we say Fantastic Four. it was better than i thougt it would be. on a scale of one to ten, i think a 8. and when im over with my brother, hes going to take me to see madagascar because on his base they get to see it for free. another wonderful perk of being in the navy.

anyways, bleh.

~Cheerio!

My weekend was great!!

for the first time i went up to shaver lake, and it was really nice to smell the pine and all that jazz! and then this coming weekend i get to go to the beach, to see family and then the weekend after that i get to go up and see my older brother and spend the week with him. he lives by the beach too.

anyways up at shaver, it was sooo fun. we get to the marina, and my cousin goes to get our pontoon boat. so we're (part of my family) sitting on the boat waiting for my uncle to get there with his boat. and then  my other cousin comes over to us and says that the damn boat got a hole in it. anyways, after much discussion, we finally get on the boat (only six of us and in all there were 12 of us) and we get taken to a little beach, and we hang out waiting for the other part of the family. it took them a while put eventually they got there. we all hung out for a while. and then some guy comes over and politly tells us to leave because we were on camp property. so six of us get on the boat, in search of a new beach. eventually we find a nice one. we get dumped off with all of our stuff, and matt goes to get the other half of the family. eventually they get back. (ok im getting tired of typing so im going to summarize it)

1. made fire, most of family gets drunk

2. 6 of us leave to meet my dad, uncle and aunt who were coming down later

3. two of us fall asleep, the other four (me, chelsea, david, and jess) talk, and after awhile, the subject of going native comes up

4. still waiting, hour and a half

5. finally they show up

6. family gets even drunker

7. fire work show starts

8. really funny watching drunk family obsess over the fire works

9. eat dinner

10. head in, traffic is a majorly backed up.

11. got home at 11ish, went to bed at 3

12. got up around noon the next day, and left for home.

13. got home.

yup, fun

Cheerio~