Dawn of Souls

my brother said there is a snow storm on my nose.....hmmmmm.....he got really close and said oh god! look at all the black holes, i think he was refering to my black heads on my nose. how that refers to a snow storm i dont know.

anyways there was some crazy ass heavy rain today, i could hardly see. my friend was waiting at my car when i got to it after school. he wanted a ride. i think we got at least 3 inches today which is a lot for this time of year and this area. anyways, today was pretty good. i made chicken pot pie, it turned out good. im hanging out at a new table now, and i like it much better. for the fact that it is in a nice place, and everyone is all girls. im still the youngest at the table, though. they were passing out caps and gowns for graduation, that just makes me think, more and more about the inevitable coming of my graduation.....scary....

~Cheerio!

i started a new book today, its called Dragon Lance: The Second Generation. its pretty good so far. its gonna rain today, i love the rain. i like to go play in it,i especially like it when its heavy rain. then i like to take a hot shower after that. that sounds really nice right now. eh, i found a bug bite on my arm, it itchy!

Im gonna hang at a different table now, stupid omar. krista and the group that she hangs with wont make fun of me, cuz its all girls. anyways, in home ec today im making chicken pot pie!!!! yummmmm....i had some the other day, because my teacher does a demonstration of what we are going to do and we can eat the demo if we want. we make good food in there. our school is the only school in the county that has a restaurant on campus. they make some awesome food there. next year because im in the HERO program, ill work in it. ill learn how to waitress, ill learn advanced cooking, basically how to work in a restaurant setting. thats what i want to do when i get out on my own.

~Cheerio!

i dont think omar is my true friend, hes been making fun of me a lot. ok, story time...this morning, i saw one of my old friends who goes to a different school, and at one time i had feelings for this guy, but im over it. but i still love this guy in a sibling way though, anyways i havent seen him in like sooo long. and i miss him so much, it actually hurt. i told omar this and he said to just forget about it, and dont worry about friends because they are all useless. he didnt say much else till lunch, then he started up with the gluttony thing again, and the friend thing, and that he gets enjoyment out of seeing me hurt. then i started to cry, and he said, "oh god, amy, if you start to cry, im going to kick you in the face, i swear i will kick you in the face. it hurts me so.

~bye.....

this girl next to me is trying to convince me to get into art, i wonder how long it well take her to realize that im talking about her. hmmmmm, not yet. then she was trying to convince me to take civics and econ over the summer, maybe i should. i dont know, i was looking forward to just being lazy.hahahahahah she found out!!! how funny! she just shaking her head at me! hehehe, funny. i had better do my work today, my grade is starting to go down in here.

~Cheerio!

i hate mondays, i had a project due today and i procrastinated till the last minute. i got some points taken off, but ill deal with it. and i need so much more sleep, i slept during brunch, lunch, and part of seventh period.

i cant wait till this weekend, i get to go to the beach. its always nice at the beach, just laying around (if you guys havent figured it out, i like to be a lazy person) and my dad will be here this weekend, so itll be nice to see him. for those who dont know, my dad has been going to a school over in Arizona, its called Mortorcycles Mechanics Institute. he comes home ever two weeks for the weekend. its been kinda hard without him, but we (my mom, and my brother, and me) have been ok for the most part. hell be home for good in august. he was going to graduate in september, but he is going to double up on classes, so he can graduate early. im going to go to foodnetwork.com now, i just watched Emeril Live and i saw this awesome looking recipe for chicken. ummmmyummmmm....chicken!

~Cheerio!

i woke up this morning to four little boys jumping on my bed. i must say i was rather grumpy this morning. but i had some breakfast (eggs, bacon, pancakes, and orange juice) and i was all better. then they all left. and i slept for about 4 more hours. and i have done nothing else. eventually i have to do some homework. ah, and i found this web site. for all the twisted, perverted sickos this site is for you: forbiddentoons.com i found it rather funny.

anyways not much else to write about.

~Cheerio!

i lurv saturdays, i get to sleep in and i dont have to get a shower in the morning (i get one in the afternoon, dont worry), and today my moms friends and her four sons came over. we all went swimming, and we made barbecue ribs and hamburgers. yummmmm!!!! ahhhh, and tomorrow will be just as good. (im sitting in my bathing suit right now....and i just got yelled at for being wet and being on furniture) i feel like laughing.....hold on.....................ahhhh, that was a good laugh. laughing is good for a person and so is CHOCOLATE!! i go now!!! the chips, THEY CALLLLLL!!!!!!

~Cheerio!!

ahh, tgif!!

I'm tired, and hungry. i feel like complaining. but i wont bore you with my incessant whining, ill go bother my friends at brunch. anyways, nothing much going on. i tried out for choir yesterday, i think i did ok. it was nothing great, all i had to do was scales. ill just have to drop math to get in, but thats ok, ive already fulfilled all the math requirements. a whole bunch of my friends are in choir, so they were really happy.

man, i never post anything really interesting. oh, well.

eh, damn demo thingy. my teacher was doing a demonstration on power point and she has the power to take over all of our computers.  i just slept during that. i ended up biting my tongue. i think im gonna change the back ground to my blog.

~Cheerio

*sigh*

another ho-hum dreary day. oh well. hehe, i scared my friend for the third time yesterday. my nails arent THAT long, they're just really hard and sharp. i must learn to control myself. but i guess he deserved it, he insults me everyday. and when i get upset, they (my friends) bring up that i should be used to is, hanging out with guys and all. i dont think ill ever learn. i went swimming today. it was fun, but cold. i was sunning, and my brother tipped me over. he was smart to run. the little bastard.

eh, i hafta go. take a shower, hot ahhhhhhhhhh relaxing. im still in my bathing suit. and cold. but i gotta go get milk. ahh, the menial (sp?) tasks of my life.

~Cheerio

HAPPY 4-20 TO ALL!!!!!

Anyways, i'm bored.

im planning a road trip with my friends krista and charlie (aka michelle). we were planning on going in june. the first day we were going to leave my house, and head to the beach. spend the day there, then head over to where disneyland is. crash there, at a hotel. then spend a day at disneyland. and then the next day go to medevil times (sp?), its like a dinner and a show type thingy. and then we were going to go to knotsberry farm and universal studios. this trip is going to take a lot of money. but hey i think if we present it to our parents, and have it all planned out, and we have the money, which by the way is going to be appriox. 1,500 bucks, i think we can actually do this. it just takes careful planning. we've all talked about how it would be so awesome to go on this trip, and now we are actually planning it. yaaaaa!!!!

(happy noodle boy)

~cheerio

god, its late, im gonna be tired in the morning. but oh, well. saturday i went shopping, and i got 3 pairs of pants, a skirt, a shirt, and two bras. the bras are awesome! they make me look like i have boobs! (happy dance!!) and then i went to hot topic. and from there i got 2 stickers. one for my brother that says "The people the live behind my eyes, and scream directly at my brain told me to tell you Hello." And the other one, for my friend says, "I have animal magnatism, when i go outside squirrels stick to my clothes." and then i got all of the issues of Johnny the Homocidal Maniac. Only 7 comic book thingys, thats the first series, the maker hasnt come out with the second season yet. if you dont know who johnny, is you should. he provokes major thought, and makes you happy to be alive. along with NNY (johnny's nickname), there is the psychodough boys, the bunny, happy noodle boy, and wobbly headed Bob. they are all great, you should check this out if you havent.

and today i saw sahara, and that movie was awesome!!!! anyways afterwards, i went to save mart, to get some candy, and when i went to give the guy the money, he looked at it and told me "i cant take this, its fake." it had a purple stamp on it the said "oil". i was like "oh, crap, i got it from the theater across the street." the guy took the money anyways, but it was kinda wierd. the bill didnt look any different, but it felt like a new bill. but whatever, im gonna go to bed now. i have cst testing in math tomorrow. bleh, i hate math....

~nightnight (dont let the flesh eating demon babies bite!)

we started block scheduling today. its not that bad actually. 2 hours on the computer is kinda nice. anyways, ya, i get to cook today. and we wont be in a rush, which is kinda nice.

anyways, nothing much to write about right now.

~Cheerio

i was very bad this weekend...

friday night i got soo shit faced, i was the life of the party. ive never seen that side of me...neither did the bed.

and because of my little escapade, i had to stay at my friends house another night. and that night i got higher than a kite. it was awesome, no wonder people get addicted to that stuff. a didn't actually hit it, it was a contact high. but we were in a rather small place, and the guys kept blowing the smoke into my face. so, of course, eventually.....wow. what i remember the most is when i caught a moth, said it looked like a deer (i swear to god it looked like a deer!), and naming it chicken. i got no sleep saturday night.

so the next morning, the first thing i did when i got home was get a shower, i didn't smell that good. believe me, gross. then i took a nap, did yard work, then went swimming. damn the water was cold as ice. but after a while, it felt pretty good.

anyways i think ill start posting every other day, my grade in here is starting to suffer.

~Cheerio

itll be an easy day today. nothing much to do, NOW thats a good day at school.

ah, and yesterday about my feeling, my brother was violently sick. projectile vomiting, out of both ends, fever of 104. my mom had to take him into the emergency room.

Anyways nothing else really going on.

Oh, ya listen to this dream i had last night...

I was in like a wal-mart store just shopping or something, when i come to this part of the store where there are all kinds of cops and all that jazz. by this time i had met up with my younger brother, and a few of my friends. the cops said there was a very dangerous man in the store, and that he likes to hide in the round racks of clothes. (hmmmm) anyways we proceded to look for this extremely dangerous man. and my brother found him. it was johnny depp. he looked like a cross between a neanderthal and jack sparrow. not very pretty, anyways and he had some type of gun, he didn't shoot it though. he runs out, the cops are all oblivous to this, so me, my brother, and my friends follow him. then at about this time my dream splits. the other one is with me and my brother in our living room trying to find out and turn off this alarm clock noise. it drove me crazy. anyways, in my other dream, we end up in a swamp, but my brother isn't with us now. we try to kill the depp thingy, but he doesnt die. eventually we find a way and we wrap him in that plastic wrap. them this GIANT comes along and scoops him up to take him to prison. i guess along the way, depp's voice filled the giants head with thoughts. i got to a point where the giant was saying "nice, pretty, minemineminemine, pretty, and hes all mine." anyways the giant goes to his fairly nice home, and he drapes the body over a chair and procedes to draw kindergarden quality pictures. these pictures then become the reincarnation of depp. meanwhile we are still in the swamp, and i realize that depp isnt dead, then it my dreams flip. im in my living room again, AND THAT GODDAMN ALARM IS STILL GOING OFF!! i hate alarm clocks with a passion that burn with the white hot intensity of a thousand suns....ya anyways, me and my brother are searching everywhere, and then i wake up, and my alarm is going off.......for over half an hour.......ive never slept through my alarm clock before.....sooo i started off the day with a roaring hear ache, but its kinda dull right now.

anyways the class is almost over and i gotta finish my assignment...

~Cheerio

its gonna drive me insane.

lately, my brain has been more active, in a psychic way. ive been able to remember at least 95% of my dreams, im picking up easier what people are thinking, and today i have this extremely strong feeling something is going to happen. i dont know if itll be good or bad or coincidental(sp?), near enough to affect me or to far away, but its there, lurking in the back or my mind becoming ever more prominent every passing minute. ive heard that when people go crazy...their thoughts surpass that of a normal human being, that their reasoning is supreme and allmighty.

and simply i ask: am i going crazy?

has my brain broken hold of this life, ready to advance to another level of higher thinking? is it giving me a taste of the next level of higher thinking?

is the word insanity just a cover up for people that are really our gods, in a sense? are the sheltered minds of our society protecting us? are they protecting us from the advacment of our own way of life?

well i wil be the one to change our world! i will throw off the shackels of suppressment, the chains of confinement! and i will rise up with my army insane gods and we will bring humanity into a world of great prosperity! of great and higher thinking! as i sit here and think of the beautiful world to come, i quiver with excitment. hmmmm, people are looking at me...i would tell them of my great plan for them, but they are still too young. they need to be taken into it gently, they are my army of insane gods, and if i wish to condition them to my liking i must tread lightly at this time. the sheltered minds are still present in THEIR minds, but i have broken free. and it is a great and beautiful thing to think truly free thoughts.

Yaaaaa..........

It feels like forever since i last posted. ive been spending most of my time at quizilla.com (its superduper) anyways, there's all kinds of neato nifty stuff there, if you go there i recommend going to the highest rated first. if you go anywhere else they kind of suck.

i made fudge last night. and you know what, that is the only thing that i have a tough time making. i dont know why, i follow the recipe, its not humid out, it just doesnt set for me. but (i dont know why i didnt do this before) i just added more powdered sugar. and it set up, i was really happy. there's like 3 and a half pounds of powdered sugar in there. altogether it adds up to about 6 lbs. of fudge. all this for my friend. he had been begging me for some for a long time. i makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside to feed people. He says ill never make money, if i start my own restaurant, but ill charge people if they come to my restaurant, i dont like to feed them THAT MUCH!

in may, on the 11 and 12th i am going to san francisco with my HERO Academy (home-ec class kind of deal) The first day well get to pier 39, and shop, then in the late afternoon we are gonna go to Alcatraz, the prison, and for those who dont know, its no longer inhabited (by live people at least) then after that were gonna go check into a hotel. the next morning well get up around 8:30 and shop more, then around 10:00 well head for Napa Valley (WINE COUNTRY!!!!!!!!) i luv wine. well go to a nice restaurant for lunch, then at the Greystone Culinary Academy well see a chef demonstration. and all in between this there will be oodels and oodels of SHOPPING!! i plan on taking a whole bunch of pics. i cant wait. im gonna bring a whole buch of food. and since we can bring an ice chest, guess what? I'M GONNA BRING ONE!!! its recommended we bring food and money and all that good stuff. and through all this it 15 dollars only comes out of my pocket. the academy pays for the rest. (e-gad! thats a lot of money!!)

anyways itll be fun!!

~Cheerio

eh....just....tired....

did...so...much...yardwork...

i need to get up earlier, i need to start exercising more....

I NEED MORE MOTIVATION!!!!