Dawn of Souls

thats fine but if its joe, GO AWAY!!!!!

Is he gone?

Good..........

JOE AND MY BEST FRIEND, KRISTA HAVE PISSED ME OFF SOOOO BAD!!

ok, remember when i told you they were all up on each other at the beach, gaaaaaaaaaaa, now they are going out. i dont know why that pisses me of, well actually i do know that it makes me jealous. im so pissed right now that i can hardly think of anything to write....................

*crickets*

ummmmmmmmmmm......

oh ya!!! charlie finally made it to school today. we just got back on school this week from spring break. i thought she was taking a couple day extra, with her family over in oregan, but i called her last night, and i found out she was sick. its funny, when she got to the table this morning i was like instantly hyper. maybe its because i missed her sooooooo much. eh, and then theres this other girl at the table, jessica. she can be nice, but omg she can be such a B-I-T-C-H!!!

The other day, when charlie wasnt here, she was all like "im gonna ask charlie out. and this friday when me and max go out to the movies, she's gonna come." max is her ex, I DONT THINK ITLL WORK OUT YOU DUMB SHIT! i didnt say that, but i sure as hell was thinking it, and even though i like girls (not as much as guys though) i WOULD NEVER EVER NEVER EVER go out with her, and thats coming from a girl whose NEVER had a boyfriend....or girlfriend. she makes me feel dirty just hanging around her. gaaaaa, and she acts like a whore at the table, laying across the guy's legs, its just blech! i told charlie what she said, and she was like "uhhhh, ewwwwww, *twitchtwitch*" and  i was like "you couldnt have put it better".

i hope jessica forgets that, cuz wouldnt that be kinda akward!?

confused cheerio~

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

My hair is frizzy, Brandon knows i like him, i finally figured what y2k stood for...ya i know its sad...LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

i need chocolate.....

and speaking of...

1)ADM Cocoa: Established over one hundred years ago, ADM Cocoa is currently the world's largest producer of cocoa-related products. The company manufactures coating chocolates made to exact specifications for clients in block or liquid form, compound coatings, and a wide variety of cocoa powders. ADM markets its products to industrial food producers. In 1997 ADM Cocoa acquired Grace Cocoa, one of the world's largest chocolate products companies, which owned Cacao De Zaan, a well-known Dutch company. Ambrosia and Merckens chocolates are also part of this group. ADM has offices in the United States and several other countries including Canada, the Netherlands, France, Germany, and Singapore.

2)Almond Joy: A popular, classic American candy bar introduced by Peter Paul in 1947. In 1998 Hershey Foods Corporation acquired Peter Paul and currently manufactures the candy bar, whose motto is "Indescribably Delicious." The bar is composed of two 2 1/2-inch long, 1-inch wide, 1/2-inch thick, oval-shaped sections of corn syrup sweetened coconut that are each topped with two whole, unblanched almonds. The bar is completely coated with milk chocolate. The two sections are considered to be one serving with a caloric content of 240.

3)Alprose: A Swiss chocolate company founded in 1957 in Caslano, near Lugano. The company merged with the German Chocolate company Stollwerck in 1957. A museum was opened to the public in 1991 and shows the Swiss chocolate tradition and the process of making chocolate.

There is a lot of words, but im already in the Q's. ive had this book since last saturday. ah, i found out that the mrs. stafford that teaches at our school, is the wife of the owner at Stafford's Chocolates. I wonder if maybe i can go there and be like, a mentee for a day. thats what i do when i go up to springville with Doug. its fun, i learned how to crack an egg with one hand, and how to flip on egg (while keeping it intact...and clean), the trick it to keep to oil hot, and you use your wrist to flip the pan. i took me a couple tries but i got it. the second time i was over there, it was a fairly slow day, so when this customer came in Doug asked me if i wanted to make his order. it was pretty cool. i made, let's see if i can remeber, scrambled eggs with ham and hash browns, and  a side of biscuits and gravy. first i put the ham on, then the sherdded potatoes (he gets them from what looks like a huge cardboard milk carton, give him a break, he makes pretty much everything else by hand), then i warmed the biscuits in the oven, then last i cooked the eggs. i got to put it together, and i put the gravy in a little bowl next to the biscuits. and its awesome, because Doug likes to feed me! (when you think about it, thats something all chefs have in common, is liking to feed people) anyways, for breakfast (the second time) i had eggs and bacon with hash browns,and for lunch i had a avacado burger. he is only open for those two meals. i think its really cool that he started his own little cafe type place. its fairly small but it does the job good. and when i say small that especially applies to the kitchen area! with Doug, me and Bug (he washed the dishes) in there, its almost crowded! but, hey its nice. i cant wait to get out into the world, and feed people. but then a part of me wants to stay this age forever. oh, well.

sad but glad Cheerio~

i dont feel good this morning...i got sick right before i got in the shower and during my shower and after my shower. i feel a little better though. and when i got to school today, my friend had done the same thing, i drove him to his house. i was a little late but it was okay.

anyways, ive read more of my wonderful chocolate book. i think after school im going to become a chocolatier, which is a person who specializing in making high quality chocolate confections. also these people are extensively trained, and have worked under master chocolatiers. or maybe ill just devote my life to food and feeding people, you know now that i really think about it i do like to feed people. i really do love food...and if you saw me you could definately verify that.

well, ive thougt about it, and i think im going to post, every day three facts about chocolate, or anything to do with chocolate. i was thinking maybe doing it in alphabetical order (this book's entire first part is like a dictionary), or maybe hoping through out the book picking out things here and there. if i dont get any comments, ill just do it alphabetically.

Chocolately~Cheerio~

i forgot to eat breakfast this morning, and its only first period and i am sooooo hungry!! and since i was on an irregular sleep pattern over break, im tired. and somebody just opened the door and i got the shivers....rrrrrrrrr....oh well.

i waited at the table this morning at school, and only one of my friends showed up. usually there is, including me, at least 5 people at the table. whatever, they're prolly at home sleeping. ah, and until may 30 school doesnt get a break, this is the longest haul without a break, i think its 9 maybe 10 weeks. and we have the star testing coming up. if we dont do good on it the state will come in and take over our school. they'll cut electives, and all the good classes, and for the people who dont score well or maybe the entire shcool, will have to take 2 english and 2 math classes. its already gonna happen to one of the other high schools, next year though. if we dont do good on this test, and the state does take over, it wont affect the juniors and seniors (im a junior). but it will affect (or is it effect?) my little brother who is coming to my school next year.

eh, school can suck so bad sometimes.....

Cheerio~

sorry i have posted in so long. vacation has been really nice, you know just veggin. anyways we just back home today from the beach. and you know what im glad to be home. dont get me wrong i love the beach but it was, including me 10 people. it was my mom, me, my brother, my friend, my brother's friend, my mom's friend and her 4 kids, all younger than 13. DAMNITALLTOHELL!!!!

anyways, my friend krista and joseph were ALLL  up on each other. and i dont know why but god damn it pissed me off soooo fucking bad. i think she was just messing with him though, she just got out of a relationship. last night is was in one of my moods *cold stare*, so i went walking out on the pier, and HOLY SHIT joe and krista found me. >:( fortunately they picked up on my mood and got the fuck out of my face.

and then there was brian. he is my mom's friends son. and he was sick. and he wasnt the kind the just rolls over and tells you to leave him alone. he was extremely LOUD, but it was kinda funny though. but he was in some, what sounded like, serious pain. ehhehehehhhe when we got into cayucos, we passed a church and he was like:

"PLEASE GOD PLEASEPLEASE JUST KILL ME NOW AND END MY HORRIBLE PAIN OH GOD IM GONNA DIE, SHOOT ME STAB ME JUST END MY LIFE NOW!!!!"

That got really old REALLY fast. When we got there he stayed in the bathroom for the rest of the night, literally. at four in the morning he woke us ALLL up. with more pieces of the above quote, unfortunately it lasted about an hour.  i think the funniest part was when he said IM GONNA DIE IM GONNA DIE!!  and his mom was like, now stop your not gonna die his retaliation was DONT TELL ME IM NOT GONNA DIE DONT TELL ME THAT CAUSE I KNOW IM GONNA DIE!!!!

Ya, that was one hell of a night. the next evening, he was definately dillusional (sp?). he proclaimed his love to everyone. okaaaaaaay, and hes at that age where if you show any affection to him he hisses in fright. that was interesting.

well ill give you some good news though, i got this awesome chocolate book. it is sooo awesome. and i got lots and lots of taffy (yumyum) and some mud fudge. the beach is fun, but with less than 5 people.

grrrrrrrr, i dont wanna go to school tomorrow.

Cheerio~

ahhh, soo nice to be on vacation. yesterday my mom let me stay home, just because. my dad came home for the weekend last night, well like at 2 this morning.

oh, im starting to plan my life after high school. its kind of exciting, but scary at the same time. i wanna stay young, but part of me wants to get on with my life. and im sure when im 35 (god thats a scary thought) ill wanna go back to being a kid. anyways, after school ill probably go to Johnson & Wales. They are supposed to have a nice culinery program. im thinkin about going to the campus over in Denver, Colorado. then theres: Charlette, North Carolina

Providence, Rhode Island

North Miami, Florida

im not too sure about which one to go to because i want to know what the weather is like. ill look up the averages later.

and later tonight im gonna email this gal who is supposed to know what i need to get in and all that good stuff.

oh, yeah,

....its official...i am obsessed with neopets....

DAMMIT ALL TO HELLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!

Cheerio~

yesterday, i slept most of the day away. and somehow i managed to watch cowboy bebop five times!

I AM THE QUEEN!!!

im better than my older sister, i found out that my older brother ditched quite a bit in high school. yesterday i was on the computer, checking my mail when he comes on and says "what are you doing home?" and i told him. he just laughed. i found out from one of my friends that i would have all subs, except for last period. so when the school calls, ill explain to my mom how the subs were:)

eventually i had to go get my brother, and my car wouldnt unlock..i was like wtf!? sooooo....

i had to pop the back, climb in through there get up to the front seat and i found out i had left my lights on the ENTIRE DAY!!! from like 8:20ish to 3:00ish. so i called the gal down the street, and she gave me a jump, got my brother came home. i washed my car, i swear it was disgusting! i had to wash everything twice! then i went next door to borrow the car battery charger from my neighbor, just in case it decided to die on me in the middle of the highway or something. i wouldnt be so bad if i had a cell phone, but i dont so i have to suffer. anyways, i let my car charge overnight, and its good as new, and i got a full tank of gas. its REALLY nice not having to worry about weather or not my car is gonna be ok.

anyways, oh! next week on wednesday, i get to go to the beach! well wednesday night im gonna drive down there with my friend and my brother and his friend. and my mom will be coming down the next day! that makes me feel responsible. plus itll be my first time driving that distance alone. well, technically i wont be alone, but i would follow my mom whenever we would go over there. when we get there, well the next day, we are gonna go to morro bay, and i wanna show my friend this awesome taffy shop, there is like 70 different flavors, and you can sample each one! its soooo awesome. if anyone is in the morro bay area, check out the CAROUSEL TAFFY shop. and then we are gonna go to the hot tubs over in avila, soooo nice...get to soak for an hour. because its a natural hot tub place it smells like sulfur but thats ok. those are the major things that we are gonna do. maybe go swimming, brrrrrrrrrrrr >_<, cold!!! walk on the pier, you know beach stuff.

Cheerio~

im at home...

when i should be at school...

ehehehehehehehe....

if i can do the entire day, i beat my older brother and sister...

both of them got cought...

anyways, ya im at home getting ready to get some extra sleep, and to watch cowboy bebop.

cheerio~

i was listening to the radio yesterday, 104.1, and psycho mike comes on. he was rantin and ravin about all the hate mail he gets and how people hate him and blah blah. personally i dont think hes that bad. but i hate it when people piss and moan and complain. (wait, isnt that what im doin now!?) he also said that he was gettin this crap from blogs as well, but whatever. just thought id mention it.

tomorrow, im not gonna come to school. well, ill drop off my brother and go home. my mom leaves right before we do, and she doesnt come home at all during the day. so i would be able to sleep the day away. yaaaaa sleepy sleepy.

ah, and my friend FINALLY brought Cowboy Bebop! Bebop is an awesome anime show. if your into anime, and you dont know of this show you should, it is one of my favorites. i also like fullmetal alchemist, wolf's rain, ghost in the shell, inuyasha, gundam seed, trigun, and vampire hunter D. these are all of my favorites.

I also got to thinkin, ive never really described myself. ive gone to other blogs, and read their posts, and imagined what they look like, but when i go to their profile, if they have a pic, im so wrong.

so here is me:

im 5'7'', with green eyes that change color, i have big feet, and broad shoulders(spellin?), long brown hair with natural red and blond highlights, im double jointed in my wrists, im a lot larger than most (ahem) but im working on it! i have nicely shaped legs (from what i hear), a nice butt (once again from what i hear and what i think), wide, but not too wide, hips, a pleasant to look at face (even though it has smatterings of acne, damn hormones!)

i like to read, im at least 5 grades ahead of my age, i am fairly gifted at drawing, i enjoy horse back riding, and anime! :) i try not to let my brother push my buttons but he does. ive got a fairly good temper, i once and a while hold a grudge, but the longest was for 4 weeks. i am loyal to friends and family. i can get defensive, even aggresive when it comes to their safety and happiness. i LOVE to give hugs, big bear hugs! i have a firm handshake, im sorry but if you give me a limp wristed, twitch of the hand it just about pisses me off. I love to rough house (wrestle), i am very patient and calm, some times i have selective hearing and learning. sometimes i talk big, but when it comes to it, i flake (not to often though!). i enjoy going to the beach, and feeling the cool breeze on my face. i hate sweating, i love overcast, windy, rainy, generally stormy days, but occasionally ill stand a warm, but still cool, springy sunny day. i am mostly thought of as a mentally solid person (except when i get one to many pounds of sugar in me *_*), friends and family know i give good advice, and they can lean on me when they need it. i wanna be a chef after i get out of high school (im a junior), and work on a cruise ship or something like that. eventually i want to retire on the beach at cayucos, california.

hmmmmmm......

i think thats it, if i think of more ill post it some other time!

Cheerio!

should a fire occur, caused by our faulty wiring or our town arsenist, you will be incinerated along with your valuables, that are hidden in your anus.

Ya thats great, euro trip.

i getta go to go to magic mountain tomorrow! i havent been there since my eighth grad field trip. almost three years. im getting old. i made brownies, and i laso did yardwork today, bleh.

nuthin much to write about right now.

Cheerio!

rrrrrrrrrrrrrr....headache.

But its my own fault. last night, on my way back from my meeting in visalia, i was tired. soooooo...i had sting on, and it was his newer one, sacred love, and i was listening to it...very loudly...and i was going very fast...i learned my car can go 85 in ten seconds...and a cop scared the shit out of me...but he passed me...so i slowed down to 70. eventually i made it home, and i got to watch my show fullmetel alchemist. its so great. im glad its friday.

but my younger brother is sick, and im HOPING not to come home to the kind of scene like i did last time.

*twitch*eeeeeeeeewwwwwwww wwwwwww....

eeeeeeeeeee, i also forgot to tell everyone, I AM NOW COUSCOUS CHICKEN!!!!!

cheerio!

I had to sit in front of my computer for like five minutes, trying to think of something to write. alas, i still have nothing to type about. nothing interesting today...im hoping if i bullshit enough, something will come to me...

i got a neopet. i dunno if thats interesting, but its all i have. well i have 3. my first one is peophin, half pony half dolphin. my second one is uni, a unicorn, and my last one is ixi, some kind of goat thingy. i think i need to stop before i get obsessed with it like i did with pokemon. ive been over those for four years. whoever comes up with this stuff is seriously overworking it.

god, this post is lame, but who gives a fuck?

K' i finally remembered the lyrics to simple and clean, but even though i post it, it wont be as good cuz you cant hear the actual music (unless youve played the game) anyways here it is:

From: Hikaru Utada-Colors

Simple and Clean:

When you walk away

You don't hear me say please

Oh baby, don't go

Simple and clean is the way that you're making

me feel tonight

its hard to let it go

You're giving me too many things

Lately you're all i need

You smiled at me and said,

Don't get me wrong I love you

But does that mean I have to meet your father?

When we are older you'll understand

What I meant when I said "No,

I don't think life is quite that simple."

When you walk away

You don't hear me say please

oh baby, don't go

Simple and clean is the way that you're making

me feel tonight

It's hard to let it go

The daily things that keep us all busy

Are confusing me

That's when you came to me and said,

Wish I could prove I love you

But does that mean I have to walk on water?

When we are older you'll understand

It's evough when I say so

And maybe some things are that simple

When you walk away

You don't hear me say please

Oh baby, don't go

Simple and clean is the way that you're making

me feel tonight

It's hard to let it go

Hold me

Whatever lies beyond this morning

Is a little later on

Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare

me at all

Nothing's like before

When you walk away

You don't hear me say please

Oh baby, don't go

Simple and clean is the way that you're making

me feel tonight

It's hard to let it go

Hold me

Whatever lies beyond this morning

Is a little later on

Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare

me at all

Nothing's like before

Hold me

Whatever lies beyond this morning

Is a little later on

Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare

me at all

Nothing's like before

Fin

My goodness i love that song!!! My hands are cramped from typing that though. hope you like it!!!

BOREDOUTOFMYMIND!!!!!!!!

Computers is getting on my nerves...grrrrrrrr.

oh,well. i just wanna sleep.

Ahhhhh, dammit!!

i was gonna post the lyrics to simple and clean, but i forgot them at home. ill do it tomorrow. its such a good song. if anyone has ever played kingdom hearts, they would know what im talking about. (its for ps2 btw) the remix version is my favorite.

god this post sucks, nothin to write about. Maybe i could write about god?

Well, i dont  believe in god. i find it really hard to believe that we all descended from the same people. i mean, wouldnt we all look basically the same? there would have been no genetic and physical variations, right? and adam and eve are always portrayed as white. SO WHERE DID WE GET THE BLACKS??? HMMMMM??? Not just blacks either, what about other races? also wouldnt that mean that all people are all related? ewwwww

i think we all evolved from monkeys. (even though i hate primates, except for lemurs!) i think it makes more sense,because except for like one difference in dna, we are closely related to primates.

another thing...WHERE IN THE BIBLE ARE DINOSAURS?? CAN YOU TELL ME THAT!? THERE IS PROOF OF THEIR EXISTANCE!!

no matter how i look at it, i cannot see myself descending from adam and eve.

hey, lookit that i found something to write about.

I had a revelation today.  And what a wonderful thing it is...

I realized that i could just ditch school because...

1) i have my own car

2) i have my own set of house keys

3) and i would just sleep all day, therefore i wouldnt mess with with anything (my mom is sensitive to that stuff)

Even though i am running a risk, because my older brother did this before, i think i can do it because i have a natural talent for being sneaky. that can be good and bad. anyways i think ill plan on doing it sometime next week.

anyways i gotta go, class is starting

cheerio!!

I had to do yardwork yesterday and today, it was a BITCH!

Anyways, nothing much going on. i got to spend most of the weekend with my older brother *soo fun* and yesterday evening we had a surprise coming home party for him. it was fun! my mom spoiled it though when she said i couldnt have even ONE SMIRNOFF!!!

And is the not the weakest alcohol drink there is!? i mean come on!!!

But whatever i still had a good time.

I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!!*throws self down and has a tantrum moment*

okay im good...ohhh dinners ready! Mexi chili mac!!

cheerio!

Today is definately better because 1)its FRIDAY!!! and 2)Brandon isnt here today!!

No more fat jokes!!!*dies a little inside*

Anyways i went out to dinner with my brother last night, and we went to the black bear diner. i ordered this burger and it was huge!! im surprised i ate it all. i know, i know your thinkin "well if your soo worried about fat jokes, why did you eat a huge meal last night?"

and the answer is:...BECAUSE ITS MY BROTHER AND I WAS CELEBRATING HIS COMING HOME!! plus i havent had some decent meat in about 4 months. mmmmmmmmmmm...meat.

and tomorrow we are throwing a surprise coming home party for him. but first before my dad comes home tonight, i gotta clean house. :(

OH!!!*totally random*does anyone know the  kingdom hearts theme song simple and clean? its SOOO AWESOME!!!! I was wondering if i could get it anywhere to put it on my blog.

I need to stop hanging out with guys.

They're nice but they make jokes at my weight, and it hurts...a lot.

And they know im working on it, ive lost 29 lbs. I look a little better.

Yesterday I was standing near our table, and Brandon comes over and says "lets go cow tipping" and he pushes me. And then Omar says "I would have used the word heifer, cause its funnier"

I just walked away, and went and cried in a bathroom.

I'll tell my older brother...and lets just say hes very protective of me.

I hope those two get whats coming to them.

(RanDOm MoMenT: WhY Do chIcKenS ClUck?)

eeeeeeeeeeeeeee...member how my day started out crappy yesterday?

WEEEEEEElllllllllllll..........

MY BROTHER CAME AND GOT ME I WAS IN SHOCK FOR LIKE TEN MINUTES AND HE TOOK ME OUT TO LUNCH AND THEN WE WENT AND GOT OUR OTHER BROTHER AND WE WENT TO WAL-MART AND HE GOT US EACH A GAME I GOT FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST EEEEEEEEE ITS SOOOOO COOL AND THEN AFTERWARDS WE WENT TO A BASEBALL GAME FOR MY SCHOOL AND THEN HE FILLED UP MY CAR THANK GOD I WAS REALLL REALLY LOW AND HE ALSO GOT ME A STUFFED FROGGY ITS SOO CUTE EEEEEEEEEE

and then i went home

BUT THEN TOMORROW I GET TO GO OUT TO DINNER WITH HIM AND THIS WEEKEND I GET TO SEE MY OTHER FRIENDS THAT CAME HOME TOO GARCIA WILL PAUL ZAR-ZAR I CANT WAIT (SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSUPEREXCI TEDHYPERHAPPYDANCE)

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAA

i told this to my friends exactly like that, and i dont think ill be seeing them for the rest of the day.

ehehehehehehehehehehe

cheerio!

grrrrrr...

my day is already started out crappy.

i wake up, around 5, i usually get up a 6, and i find that my family has put our new puppy with me. and she has 1) gotten down sometime during the night and took a shit by my door 2) pissed in my bed. soo i get up, no use going back to sleep, and get a shower, up till my brother gets up, at 7, usually at 6:30. soo i was almost late for school. then i realize my book is due today, so i go turn it in, go to find another one, and i realize, ive read every single book that is interesting!

and its just barely 11 mins. into 1st period.

i wanna go home.

bleh.